To be honest, you’re that ‘typical guy’ that I would normally be cursing about with my friends… our friendship is such an odd one to me that it totally throws me off balance o.0
I guess it helps that we started as friends on the intellectual level, no lie, we have some pretty awesome discussions. But like we said, you never know how ‘innocent’ someone is, and boy do you boggle my mind. Typically I’m not especially surprised when I learn something about someone, everyone does their own thing. I’m not sure why but everything new I find out, point of view wise and such, about you, I just can’t seem to fit all the puzzle pieces together in my head. With that I just fall on my acceptance card and just take it at face value…but thinking about it I just can’t understand. I’m always interested in learning about people, I’m nosy I guess, and usually people just don’t openly tell me as much as you have. I guess it’s because I’m the connection to the one you’re interested in??? I guess that puts me at a different level, but I guess I’m just assuming that’s the behavior of guys, to only confine such information with other guys.
I’ve never had to use actual crutches before, but I feel like over the past few years I’ve become dependent on several ‘crutches’ in my life. I’m not saying it’s totally bad to have crutches, it gives me something to lean on when life gets tough. But some of them I worry that I’ve become too attached to and I just don’t know how to move on after losing certain ones. Sometimes I wonder if it would be better for me to just put away all my crutches, get something more like a cane, something that supports me a little but doesn’t control my mobility. Maybe one day I’ll be able to just walk on my own… but even if I can reach that point… I’m not sure that I want to
so there’s a new one now… this one is numba 5 or 6, not rly sure anymore.
i’m prolly a terrible person to find such amusement in someone’s romantic life
(for those who don’t know… this one would be the 5th or 6th one in a YEAR)
i also can’t help but overhear the phone conversations to the parents where she’s so adamant about how she knows what she’s doing and is super defensive of her actions. seriously, if ur living paycheck to paycheck and most of your housing, schooling, and car stuff is paid by ur parents, you prolly dont wanna spend a bunch of money on guys u only date for like a month… or two… or at the same time… i guess i’m amused by the situation because in a way i just can’t understand why…
don’t get me wrong, she’s totally a nice person… but i can’t help but think there’s a lil something missing upstairs…